Consumed.
by jlolb
I’m going to run a half marathon. I’m not sure which one, or where or even when. But I will run 13.1 consecutive miles no matter how badly my knees and ankles hurt. I’m going to do it. I was up to 10m last year and then, poof. Now I’m back to that place where 4 miles seems impossible and upon finishing, I’m gasping for air. I’m disappointed that I let go of my stride. And then, of course, I hope to do well at the things that come along with the training–more water, less sugar, saying goodbye to french fries–for the most part.
The others aren’t quite so tangible, I mean, I guess they’re kindof tangible, but the training schedule, well, it looks a bit different….figuring out what I want to do…graduate school or not…Colorado or somewhere else…you or not you….you.
It’s funny, I find that I can push the topic far, far away during the rest of the year, but in the few days surrounding the start of this new year, I find myself inundated with thoughts about what I hope to accomplish, what I want for these next 12 months…how this yellow brick road should look…and, ultimately, what I hope I have left behind with our friend, 2010. I’ll be 26 this year, peeps (holy shit). For some reason, I’m not sure I’m exactly where I’d hoped to be when I got here, but I’m also not exactly sure what I hoped it would look like otherwise…
Consuming. Focusing on this is absolutely consuming my thoughts.
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I’ll do a 13.1 with you, if you want a running buddy. Mom talked me into “the whopper” for this June. I could do the half as a training run this spring. Minnesota? Colorado? Nebraska, smack dab in between?
Cara will be moving to Denver in April which means I’ll be out there soon.
Hope you had a good Christmas and enjoyed your exit from 2010.
it’s all i think about too!! it’s kinda scary. the great idea followed by the sinking feeling that it probably won’t happen…
welp – that was a downer.
perhaps i should change my perspective?
If you can do 10 you can do 13. THe farthest I had run before mine last year was 9! ANd it was a breeze!
And quit worrying so much about the destination. Just enjoy every day. Enjoy the journey! You don’t have to have an end point right now. Are your days happy? Do you feel fulfilled? If so, awesome, stay there for awhile. If not, tweak the path a little!